about me right now..
1. i need to do my claims..my receipts are strewn across my bad along my cardigan from this morning and my kopi-oh..a pen to write unwritten receipts and my passport..i’m going home tomorrow and honest to go i can’t think of anything else..home is good..its like this place where you touch base and recharge and remember why in the world why you are in this complicated life after all..the smiles, the stupid inside jokes, the strength is just what you need to keep going
2. my life is one big guilt trip after another..feeling guilty cause i’m playing restaurant city instead of real work, feeling guilty everytime i eat something, feeling guilty cause i didnt loose 3 kg i promised my doctor nor did i do a lot of swimming, feeling guilty to my mom cause..(lets not go there), feeling guilty to my girlfirends cause i’m not there enough, feeling guilty to my girlfriends cause when i’m there all i talk about is myself, feeling guilty to my boss for being a sissy, feeling guilty for sleeping too much, feeling guilty for not increasing the air con temperature, and not using a hybrid car, feeling guilty for not doing my taxes (crap!) and a whole lot of myriad..i think this is the first step to acceptance..that i’ll always feel guilty
3. i dont remember what point three is…
4. i’m going home tomorrow..enough said 
2 Comments
June 12, 2009 at 8:07 am
owh mynn..i wish u well dear
and pls pls pls just enjoy the life…
one thing at a time. *hugs*
June 16, 2009 at 5:32 pm
restaurant city?
*gulp*
hihi