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i’ve never been good with goodbyes, as a matter of fact goodbyes for me are always an awkward situation

take for example, when lin was leaving for the uk, the goodbye wasn’t like a goodbye..it was more like, see ya later alligator! although later would be a year later…we were laughing actually (maybe in denial…aha)

it was only later when i was eating with the guys that i felt a pang of loneliness..none of my stories that usually made sense to lin made sense to them, or at least they weren’t reacting the way i wanted them to

that’s why i hate goodbyes…for me goodbyes should be quick, like pulling off a band aid…let the pain be quick so i can lick my sorrow in secret

so today when i said goodbye again, it was clean and fast

only on my drive home did it hit me

something is not right

you know how it feels when you say goodbye to certain people that really makes your day

its just like bawang goreng

you may be able to survive without them by your side

but life would never really be complete without them